update

wow! it has been a really long time since I wrote, and Im not sure if anyone reads this anymore, but in case you do, here is the latest news with jacob and myself!

we moved.. the week before christmas, our landlord came to us and told us that she wanted her son to move in the house that we were currently living in - so.. we moved. thankfully the Lord brought brad and jayna into our lives because they offered to let us rent from them :) so.. now we live WAY closer to town, and for WAY cheaper !!!

jacob is in his second semester at panola and he is absolutely brilliant. he just "gets" everything that he is supposed to be learning, and already knows SO much more than is expected of him. i am so very excited to see where the Lord leads him after nursing school ! Right now, he is gearing towards CRNA (certified registered nurse anesthesist) school, but who knows where he will be when he is finished.

i have been working in labor & delivery for eight months, and i am still loving it! i began working nights about two weeks ago, and though it is an adjustment, i am really truly enjoying it and the wonderful people i work with. i have learned so much and met so many wonderful people through my job, and i know that the Lord deliberately placed me here :)

jacob and i joined holly springs baptist church back in september (i believe) and have absolutely been blessed beyond words at that wonderful place :) the Lord has placed a tremendous group of friends in our lives that jacob and i get overwhelmed sometimes with all the love. When we left marshall, we prayed that God would bring us friends, and He did!!

this past christmas, jacob and i thought it would great for his brother jonathan to come to nacogdoches and go to sfa, so he applied and got accepted! jacob is really enjoying having his brother here to hang out with.. well.. jacob is enjoying having ALOT of boys to hang out with..

it has almost been one year since camdyn's birth.. i cannot believe it has already been that long.. we have had a rough year mouring, and learning to live with the pain of losing someone so precious. BUT.. the Lord is sovereign and has allowed us to see purpose in her short life and her death.. i am so thankful for the experience and for Him allowing me to meet her face to face..i know that i never would have made it a year, much less a day without the Lord helping me.. and i know that i have many more difficult days to come but i WILL see her sweet little face again and i am so thankful for that, and i am so thankful for the healing that the Lord has brought us and the wonderful friends that are there for me along the way!

well thats about it :)

Camdyn Reese

I have decided that it is time to write. I was 22 weeks and one day pregnant last tuesday when i woke up and i knew that something was wrong. My amniotic fluid was leaking and I knew that this was very very bad. Jacob, my mom, and I went to the doctor and after examining me, he discovered that I was almost two centimeters dialated. The doctor then did a sonogram and we saw our baby's precious heart beating and her hands moving. The doctor wasnt sure if my water had completely broken or if I just had a 'tear' or something in my amniotic sac. So, he sent us over to the hospital and on the way over, my water completely broke. They admitted me into the hospital and the doctor came in with the 'options'. He told us that since there was no amniotic fluid left that the baby's lungs couldnt develop and I was at a high risk for sepsis (major infection), he told us that the only thing I could do was deliver the baby.. Since I was only 22 weeks, the baby had no chance of survival. She didnt have enough lung tissue to intubate her and with no amniotic fluid, her lungs wouldnt develop any further.. I know it doesnt make sense, and it didnt make sense to me at the time, why couldnt they just put me on bed rest and wait until she could survive? There was nothing that could be done. It was all God's planSo.. they started the pitocin and we waited. ... while this is all going on, I am panicked, overwhelmed, i knew that i wouldnt be able to deliver my baby into a world where she couldnt survive. I felt so helpless. the next morning, they started the pitocin again and within thirty minutes I was feeling contractions. ... at around 1' clock, it was time, so the doctor came in and somehow I delivered her while her daddy watchedShe was the tiniest, most precious being i have ever seen in my life and she was ours. She lived for around 30 minutes and then passed away. We got to hold her for a long time and spend time looking at her huge hands and feet, and examining her every detail. She was a foot long and weighed 1 pound and 2.2 ounces. She looked just like her daddy. After we let her go, we started noticing the changes that were happening in our lives and the lives of people around us. We had a private burial for her that was perfect. we all sat around and listened to the song "held" and realized that God is sovereign, and our sweet baby girl did more in her thirty minutes of life than many of us ever do. Lives have been forever changed, hardened hearts have been softened, and relationships that were broken are mended and restored. What is so amazing to me, is that God chose me to carry this precious angel and bring her into the world to work in so many people's lives. I feel so honored and proud that the Lord trusted me to do this. Jacob and I will never be the same, and I am thankful for that. This has been the hardest thing either of us have ever dealt with and most likely ever will. Our hearts are completely broken and every day is hard. Nights are especially tough for me, and im sure they will continue to be tough. We truly appreciate all of your prayers and thoughts and the sweet cards and flowers.. we feel so loved. My hope is that everyone who reads this will be touched and maybe your life will be a little different than it was because of our sweet camdyn.

sooo... in case its possible that you have stumbled upon this site and not seen my facebook, jacob and I are having a baby girl!! we found out last week, but ive been pretty busy traveling and painting.. I cant believe I am graduating in one month. my gosh, i have been here for WAY too long, and I am sooooo ready to go. Exciting things are happening in Jacobs future as well, he is thinking about going to nursing school in december, I am SO excited for him. He is so smart, i know he will breeze through it. Most likely he will keep going and maybe become a CRNA or nurse practitioner. Anyway, we shall see.

love love

life!

So... we got the keys to our house early!! we have already begun painting.. we painted the living room and dining room yellow! i know.. it may be sort of out there, but it looks beautiful.. i am spending today cleaning (obviously im not doing a great job of it) and packing! i have been thinking about all the people preparing to be married, and i am so excited for them.. what a blessing to find the person God has for you and how wonderful it is to always have him with you. me and jacob are one of the couples that get to fall into the category of "very difficult first year", but we have grown so much from that time and our relationship has become so strong.. i know that there will continue to be struggles, but i know we can make it.


im in love

so this is our new house! It sits on ten acres of land and we are so excited about the open space and relaxing feel that it has. We get the keys April 1st, and are going to begin renovating some things that we would like to change. The house is in beautiful condition, we just have some cosmetic changes that we'd like to make. I have interviewed with Nacogdoches Medical Center in Nacogdoches for the Labor and Delivery unit and I should be finding out about that pretty soon. Jacob is available for management on March 25th, so we are excited about that as well. Also, we will be finding out on the same day March 25th whether the baby is a boy or a girl!!!

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